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Hobson's Choice
There are 3 words infinite in my life : Female Human Species LOL
Problem is - after all these years, I'm still asking wht my karma is (with opposite sex). The lines of questioning and the critical judgement tht I get is something to behold. It's quite flattering actually.
Funny - as fren, u r a close confidante and the most trusted person on earth, but 3 words later ( a diff 3 words - not the infinite 3 words ), u r suddenly a world-class bad. The trust level plummeted to below zero.
Tell me, which part of 'I luv you' makes u a world-class bad. Mebbe I'm just not used to having girls over..oopps I mean in my life. I dont really know wht's on their mind or wht they like to do - I dont hv any dolls or make-up or anything, but I luv them, I luv their femininity, their femaleness and everythg abt them..( Re: infinite 3 words..).
Something is wrong with me I think - not them *sigh*
Bee, I wont be home for dinner tonite K.
Problem is - after all these years, I'm still asking wht my karma is (with opposite sex). The lines of questioning and the critical judgement tht I get is something to behold. It's quite flattering actually.
Funny - as fren, u r a close confidante and the most trusted person on earth, but 3 words later ( a diff 3 words - not the infinite 3 words ), u r suddenly a world-class bad. The trust level plummeted to below zero.
Tell me, which part of 'I luv you' makes u a world-class bad. Mebbe I'm just not used to having girls over..oopps I mean in my life. I dont really know wht's on their mind or wht they like to do - I dont hv any dolls or make-up or anything, but I luv them, I luv their femininity, their femaleness and everythg abt them..( Re: infinite 3 words..).
Something is wrong with me I think - not them *sigh*
Bee, I wont be home for dinner tonite K.
Who do u love..
Come August this year..I’l be 2 (in YM), you’d think I’d be older..(hmm..tht aging thg again.) and wiser by now. You’d think!.
For me, life in here is still an addiction, a hard habit, an obligation at times.hahaha. Just look at this place, everybody is buzzing, maneuvering and looking for something, It’s a tabloid! U r always a part of something, whether u r on or off radar. anything new is always good by definitions. It can shock, insult or offend me – I don’t care, so long as it doesn’t bore me.. Tell me, where else can u find home…
Yahoowise, I’m really grateful for the things I don’t hv tht I don’t want. Those tht I want and I hv, I want to keep – esp. all my 9 comels. Hmm..lemme see, 9 eh.. o O O
Dizz : Always special. We used to breathe the same air masa kat TTDI dulu. Whtever chatting skill yg I ada, dizz yg ajar..(esp. part yg mengganaz ). She took me to KL1, introduced me to her frens, bawak I masuk frenster and then gave me my own space here..tak penah lagi tinggalkan I. But very soon orang lain dah nak amik dia.
Anis : She’s on a mission, a quest…and since I don’t look anything like keanu reeves, I consider myself out. One time dulu, dia pernah cakap “ Dot, as thief u suck!” . Wht was tht all about anis..? Tu dulu, now kitorang gang bucoks. Tak garang pun minah ni..haha.
Pie : Her 2 ex, were Libran, so she already counted me out..*sighs*. But Pie, let me tell u a lil secret… Selalu nyer kan..org yg u xmo tu la will be the one. LOL. Her voice is so the very the..hehehe. We are very close, sampai ada part gaduh-gaduh.
Honeybee : She’s what I call a feel good, a grrr.. and a fren all roll into one. She’s my colors in KL1 and my bucoks elsewhere. Looking at all the comments in her Space, I boleh consider myself an underdog here ---way way under !. Cmolots!!
Yan : She’s my baby since dgr dia nyanyi lagu ‘..stupid mistakes’ and she will always be. Lagipun Yan dah ada Tom Cruise Malaya – how to beat tht..
Leen : Hmm Leen..she’s err umm ooo. We had fun, loads and loads. That’s was before some Khans sorok dia. And I look nothing like any Khan..
Lilot : she’s my Sahara, always mysterious, enigmatic and magnetic. Kejap ada lamaaaaaa takde. A lot of ppl goes missing discovering Sahara…hmm.
Farmie : I like her becos she keeps no skeleton in her closet. Bones..? I dunno. Nak jumpa I, bawak bf…how much more blaring can u get. (Farmgirl dan cowgirl sama tak..? Cowgirl biasa nyer – raw, wild and raunchy . Gurau eh Farmie….sambung LOL )
Ginko : Hmm..she’s always protecting. Ke from me jer.?. LOL.
There goes…all possibilities.
Some guys are born better, while others, like me, we are just born lucky – gelak guling tendang terajang..( eh, kalo lucky macam mana all the 9, the better guys yg dapat..? )
( o O O better to be better ker or better to be lucky.? Hmm..)
Love y’all…muahs muahs and muahs!
For me, life in here is still an addiction, a hard habit, an obligation at times.hahaha. Just look at this place, everybody is buzzing, maneuvering and looking for something, It’s a tabloid! U r always a part of something, whether u r on or off radar. anything new is always good by definitions. It can shock, insult or offend me – I don’t care, so long as it doesn’t bore me.. Tell me, where else can u find home…
Yahoowise, I’m really grateful for the things I don’t hv tht I don’t want. Those tht I want and I hv, I want to keep – esp. all my 9 comels. Hmm..lemme see, 9 eh.. o O O
Dizz : Always special. We used to breathe the same air masa kat TTDI dulu. Whtever chatting skill yg I ada, dizz yg ajar..(esp. part yg mengganaz ). She took me to KL1, introduced me to her frens, bawak I masuk frenster and then gave me my own space here..tak penah lagi tinggalkan I. But very soon orang lain dah nak amik dia.
Anis : She’s on a mission, a quest…and since I don’t look anything like keanu reeves, I consider myself out. One time dulu, dia pernah cakap “ Dot, as thief u suck!” . Wht was tht all about anis..? Tu dulu, now kitorang gang bucoks. Tak garang pun minah ni..haha.
Pie : Her 2 ex, were Libran, so she already counted me out..*sighs*. But Pie, let me tell u a lil secret… Selalu nyer kan..org yg u xmo tu la will be the one. LOL. Her voice is so the very the..hehehe. We are very close, sampai ada part gaduh-gaduh.
Honeybee : She’s what I call a feel good, a grrr.. and a fren all roll into one. She’s my colors in KL1 and my bucoks elsewhere. Looking at all the comments in her Space, I boleh consider myself an underdog here ---way way under !. Cmolots!!
Yan : She’s my baby since dgr dia nyanyi lagu ‘..stupid mistakes’ and she will always be. Lagipun Yan dah ada Tom Cruise Malaya – how to beat tht..
Leen : Hmm Leen..she’s err umm ooo. We had fun, loads and loads. That’s was before some Khans sorok dia. And I look nothing like any Khan..
Lilot : she’s my Sahara, always mysterious, enigmatic and magnetic. Kejap ada lamaaaaaa takde. A lot of ppl goes missing discovering Sahara…hmm.
Farmie : I like her becos she keeps no skeleton in her closet. Bones..? I dunno. Nak jumpa I, bawak bf…how much more blaring can u get. (Farmgirl dan cowgirl sama tak..? Cowgirl biasa nyer – raw, wild and raunchy . Gurau eh Farmie….sambung LOL )
Ginko : Hmm..she’s always protecting. Ke from me jer.?. LOL.
There goes…all possibilities.
Some guys are born better, while others, like me, we are just born lucky – gelak guling tendang terajang..( eh, kalo lucky macam mana all the 9, the better guys yg dapat..? )
( o O O better to be better ker or better to be lucky.? Hmm..)
Love y’all…muahs muahs and muahs!
Don't believe the truth..
There are so many things I dont get.. like why ppl let go reality/life for something much less. Yeah wht is reality anyway..
We are so governed by sex and sins..oopps typo . I mean we are so governed by judgement and condemnation tht we constantly overthink and overfuss on almost everything, killing whtever little impulsiveness and naturalness tht we have, we even change our lives because of wht ppl may think.
I dont know how many times over and again ppl dont get to hear or say something tht shld hv been spoken in the first place, for fear of judgement and condemnation. When opportunity stares, we always say something else. We prefer to kill our anxieties w/o any moment of truth. No condemnation, no judgement and for sure no conclusion...
We are a function of our thoughts. Average man do 60,000 thoughts a day - 90 percent are yesterdays thoughts. See!!? 'If'ing..
Wanna sleep better tonite..? Find space and freedom to be yourself.. And if u can find those space, let me know. I'm looking for more room to roam and to romp.
We are so governed by sex and sins..oopps typo . I mean we are so governed by judgement and condemnation tht we constantly overthink and overfuss on almost everything, killing whtever little impulsiveness and naturalness tht we have, we even change our lives because of wht ppl may think.
I dont know how many times over and again ppl dont get to hear or say something tht shld hv been spoken in the first place, for fear of judgement and condemnation. When opportunity stares, we always say something else. We prefer to kill our anxieties w/o any moment of truth. No condemnation, no judgement and for sure no conclusion...
We are a function of our thoughts. Average man do 60,000 thoughts a day - 90 percent are yesterdays thoughts. See!!? 'If'ing..
Wanna sleep better tonite..? Find space and freedom to be yourself.. And if u can find those space, let me know. I'm looking for more room to roam and to romp.
Shade of confrontation...
I woke up to the deafening sound of nothing – total silence! (..LOL! they say sometimes it’s good to start with a cliché..).But it’s 4.30am!!! And I should be sleeping.
Grrr!! Who wants to be up at this hour, nobody! I don’t need the serenity, I just want to sleep. I have no real mess in my life..except err..mmm, owh nvm, I never leave my cul de sac anyway, so why waking up at 4.30am is becoming a norm lately..
This is the third time I’m saying that we are a function of our thoughts, here in my blog. So me waking up at 4.30am, must have something to do with what I have on my mind… or my thought rather. But I was asleep, how would I know what was on my mind. Maybe my mind took a short trip into some neurotic episodes, I don’t know. It’s 4.30am, I don’t want to think of anything at 4.30am.
But things do get a little more incomprehensible sometimes. I speak and act faster than I think. It’s reflexive but sporadic. And there are times I scarcely recognize myself. Is that the reason why..? Waking up at 4.30am?. I need to do a quick check here….
I’m still crystal with where I’m going. Yeah I know, procrastination is such a dirty word, but hey, everyone stagnates at one point or another, I’m sure I’ll get to that soon enough.
Relationship?, this is where I go grey. I must admit I have been staring at the sun, and in all those brightness I see nothing..
Didn’t they say the important thing is to recognize your grey areas …right?
For the past 3 yrs, I never want to try to appeal to anyone. Never, not even once. (ok…maybe a few times ), but that’s hormonal. In all sincerity, I’m quite happy the way I am ( hmm..i know, the standard line of denials..). but some of the things that men and women do to each other are still shockingly brutal.
I don’t want to go out of this single world, not now anyway. There are much less subterfuge here.. Besides, otherness never raided my sleep before.
Maybe I’m just tired, tired of pretending and tired of denying. Or maybe Alice doesn’t live here anymore… But still, I never want to wake up at 4.30am. Unless of course Alice is here with me, right here right now…LOL that would have been a totally different story altogether, neurotic would then be spelled - erotic! OK I wont dwell on Alice being here at 4.30am…
Wait! who says waking up at 4.30am has something to do with some disorder of some kind? Maybe this is just a fleeting thing…very fleeting thing. Just like love, life and happiness…
Mahathir and Mahaleel..I’m all with u.. I may not know the real politics behind it all, but our national car is definitely our pride, it should therefore be handled as such - with passion and intensity. I wont even try staring at the sun to see if there is honor and substance in having VW running and waving their wands around in Proton… cos I know it will just amounts to nothing, pride-wise.
Salut and luv...to all my 10 lovely frens.
Grrr!! Who wants to be up at this hour, nobody! I don’t need the serenity, I just want to sleep. I have no real mess in my life..except err..mmm, owh nvm, I never leave my cul de sac anyway, so why waking up at 4.30am is becoming a norm lately..
This is the third time I’m saying that we are a function of our thoughts, here in my blog. So me waking up at 4.30am, must have something to do with what I have on my mind… or my thought rather. But I was asleep, how would I know what was on my mind. Maybe my mind took a short trip into some neurotic episodes, I don’t know. It’s 4.30am, I don’t want to think of anything at 4.30am.
But things do get a little more incomprehensible sometimes. I speak and act faster than I think. It’s reflexive but sporadic. And there are times I scarcely recognize myself. Is that the reason why..? Waking up at 4.30am?. I need to do a quick check here….
I’m still crystal with where I’m going. Yeah I know, procrastination is such a dirty word, but hey, everyone stagnates at one point or another, I’m sure I’ll get to that soon enough.
Relationship?, this is where I go grey. I must admit I have been staring at the sun, and in all those brightness I see nothing..
Didn’t they say the important thing is to recognize your grey areas …right?
For the past 3 yrs, I never want to try to appeal to anyone. Never, not even once. (ok…maybe a few times ), but that’s hormonal. In all sincerity, I’m quite happy the way I am ( hmm..i know, the standard line of denials..). but some of the things that men and women do to each other are still shockingly brutal.
I don’t want to go out of this single world, not now anyway. There are much less subterfuge here.. Besides, otherness never raided my sleep before.
Maybe I’m just tired, tired of pretending and tired of denying. Or maybe Alice doesn’t live here anymore… But still, I never want to wake up at 4.30am. Unless of course Alice is here with me, right here right now…LOL that would have been a totally different story altogether, neurotic would then be spelled - erotic! OK I wont dwell on Alice being here at 4.30am…
Wait! who says waking up at 4.30am has something to do with some disorder of some kind? Maybe this is just a fleeting thing…very fleeting thing. Just like love, life and happiness…
Mahathir and Mahaleel..I’m all with u.. I may not know the real politics behind it all, but our national car is definitely our pride, it should therefore be handled as such - with passion and intensity. I wont even try staring at the sun to see if there is honor and substance in having VW running and waving their wands around in Proton… cos I know it will just amounts to nothing, pride-wise.
Salut and luv...to all my 10 lovely frens.
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